About a month or so ago, I decided that I had been coasting through school with little or no regard to how I look. I mean, I always make sure my uniform is clean and unwrinkled (hey, I only iron when backed into a corner) and I shower and shampoo my hair, but I haven't worn make-up because, I just didn't see the point. Just before I started Peds/OB, though, my Elder daughter (she of the blunt comments) pointed out that I was starting to appear haggard and should do something about it or I'd scare the children in the hospital (yes, she's still walking upright, has all her teeth, and breaths on her own accord). I looked in the mirror and saw that I did indeed appear exhausted. The area under my eyes was sunken and slightly bluish. My face seemed to always be either splotchy or Geisha-like in appearance. Something had to be done.
Gathering my guilt, I packed it away and headed for the store, where I bought myself some make-up. Foundation, eyeshadow, mascara, eyeliner, lipstick. The works. When we went to the hospital for computer training (the day the demons in my belly were exorcised), I was totally and completely transformed into a woman with some care and concern for her appearance. I even got a comment from one of my friends. "Who you gettin' all sexed up for?" Of course, she said it with a smile and went on to tell me she really liked my make-up.
So, as a rule, I've been trying to get moving every morning with enough time to apply my warpaint. Surprisingly, it makes me feel better. Even on days when my energy level is in the CAN and I feel tired and worn out, knowing I've given my face it's best foot forward, so to speak, seems to revive me some.
Yesterday, that sort of screeched to a temporary halt. While the class I'm in is taking OB/PEDS during this second semester (remember we're in shortened fast track semesters that last 8 weeeks each during each semester now), another group is taking Adults Health II like I did back from August to October. There are some folks in that class that I'm not TERRIBLY close with. One woman, whom I've never really known, was standing in the hall after they had taken a test yesterday. Our class took a break and as I passed her she said, quite loudly, "What is it with people suddenly wearing make-up and doing their hair? I guess they just got tired of being ugly!"
Yup! A grown-ass woman!
I just smiled and kept walking to the elevator, wanting deep inside to dangle her skinny ass over the railing of the upstairs atrium until she screamed "Beep Beep, I'm a Jeep!" I'm not doing jail time, so obviously I resisited that urge. Too bad she couldn't have resisited her urge to be a petty, shallow, bitch.
*sigh*
I used the experience to illustrate to Elder that High School never ends. People are always going to look for ways to deflate whatever balloon you're holding. Women are bitches, wherever you go. Skinny bitches can be so insecure they say things outloud that reveal their deep set need to affirm their own place in the world, and usually, because most other people are NOT insecure assholes, the comments that are made fall on deaf ears. The ones that do listen, are usually empty and devoid of something vital inside, and should be pitied.
Of course, it still stings but I refuse to let that little bleach blonde bitch know that!!! Pshaw. I am fabulous and she is the dirt beneath my feet. Even if sometimes, I wonder . . .